Mood: Deep Blue Sea

Something I have noticed in myself is that I grew fearful of things in my teenage years and early twenties. As a child, I did lots of wild things that should have caused broken bones and regrets, but you don't know/care what the consequences could be. I guess I started having to figure out what I was and was not going to do with myself and my time and I quickly decided I was scared of doing a lot of things. 

One of those is being in a body of water that I cannot see the bottom of. 

I grew up swimming in a farm pond in the summer and didn't let myself get too worried about what was going on beneath me. I tubed with friends in mid-west lakes and had amazing weekends. And then somewhere along the way, I realized how much I hate putting myself in a place that I cannot see what is around me. 

This last winter, we started rock climbing indoor and I am slowly slowly getting past my equally limiting fear of heights. 

I am so intrigued by the athletic and adventurous qualities of spending time in the water. I want to better understand my fear so that I can get over it!! 

While I don't have the luxury of living by the sea and having access to surfing or scuba diving, there is paddle boarding and swimming and kayaking and rowing that can be explored here in Iowa. 

Fly fishing in baby streams and getting out in our canoe this summer is a good baby step to not letting mental fear set me back :) 

Happy July !

-Emily